Can we skip to the good bit?

Hello friends! 


Another week, week 12-13. This baby's like 5-6cm big and causing me so much bother already! Im just gonna have a massive rant here now cos i don't really have anything exciting say, just all problems. 


Im reeeeally hoping this pregnancy improves soon cos its getting me down. With Alfie it was an easy pregnancy ish, I got a sore back n pelvis and had to have physio and I had quite bad heartburn but that was it! This child must be a girl or so I'm hoping anyway. 


Heres my problems, Im pissing like a racehorse. I know thats understandable in pregnancy but its usually later on when the babes big and taking up room like when i had alfie towards the end i was going the toilet loads. But i could understand that. Now i don't know if its cos i have a low placenta and its pressed against my bladder or something but its driving me crazy. I can cope during the day but its ruining what little sleep i have. Im getting angry with myself refusing to go the toilet cos I'm too tired and then its painful keeping it in. Its just waking me up in the night or when I'm about to drift off BOOM i need a wee. 


I'm still feeling sick, although not as much. its mainly of a morning, and evening and during the night. Better than all day anyway. But Im still waking up in the night feeling ill and not being able to go back to sleep :/ Asda doesn't smell so bad anymore, so I've made one or two trips rather than making Ryan go for me. I do have to dodge the fish, poultry, pizza, curry and bread isles tho, they smell. Im also really hot, its summer in my body. Im dreading it when it actually gets hot. Gonna have to find a nudist beach to starfish on naked. Failing that, you'll see me down new brighton. You won't be able to miss me. There are worse sights down there though. 


What little sleep i do get seems to be full of dreams. Dreams that Im in labour mainly or horrible dreams about the baby dying or alfie dying. Because Im constipated so my stomaches always sore especially of a night, its making me dream thinking I'm having contractions. I swear they go on for hours too. I know dreams are only supposed to last seconds or something but not mine. Hours it goes on. 


Constipation is my other moan, yes yes this is another pregnancy symptom. Im eating weetabix before someone tells me to get some fibre. I even took laxatives which the midwife shouted at me for. Still nothing. Its making my belly huge, hard and painful especially of a night. 


Another problem has joined me today. Pelvic pain. I had this with alfie but not until halfway through and i had to wear a big bandage thing to support my bump and have physio cos it really hurt to walk. But 12 weeks in and BOOM sore bones. I have to walk really slowly and waddle cos it helps. This looks stupid considering i don't look pregnant and just like I've shit myself. Ha. i wish! 


All these people that go on about the pregnancy 'glow' and how your hair shines and your nails grow. My hairs greasy, my nails are crap and the only glow I've got is an angry one. 


Im so tired all the time its making me want to cry. trying to get up with alfie at half 6 in the morning kills me, i don't enjoy it. I count down the minutes til his nap. Even after my midday nap, by about 5 o'clock i need another one. Ive got two sets of bags under my eyes.


On the upside...yes theres a small one. Im getting better with eating. Im not living off crisps and I'm starting to eat proper meals again. whoop de doo. I also weighed myself. And although I'm feeling like Ive put a stone on, Ive actually only put 3/4 of a pound on. HA. Scales must be wrong. But i won't argue with them. Not bad anyway considering I've lost 8lbs since i found out I was pregnant. 


Ohhh and lets not forget my boobs. of course! They're growing already. they're hurting and they're itchy. I know i know, Im quite the vision of beauty. If you could see me, itching my boobs, with bags under my eyes, massive belly, waddling, needing a wee but hoping for a poo, ohhhh what JOYS.


Anyway, I said it was a rant, hopefully ill have something good to say soon. I hate this time where you feel pregnant, just look like you've put on weight, feel like crap and don't have a bump or feel a kick yet. 


Thanks for this Ryan, you did this to me. Yes you have 6 more months of this :) 


Here's a photo i took of my 'bump' before. Its actually gone down now. 

Happy friday everyone :) 


Kelli xXx

Time To Tell Everyone

So here we go..baby number two. Thought I'd write a blog so I've got something to look back on and remember :) I'll write about my pregnancy, show some pics of my bump when i get one, and about trying to cope with having Alfie and another on the way. 


We bought the little cheap sticks first cos doing a pregnancy test became a monthly occurrence in our house thanks to my impatience. I'd do one, it'd say negative and I'd come on the next day. So when i told Ryan i think I was late he didn't believe me. We'd been trying for a baby for about 4 months so it wasn't a big shock, ish. We knew it was coming but wasn't expecting it quite so soon. Ryan thought he might have fertility issues. I think he just enjoyed the 'trying for a baby' part ;) Anyway, I did the first stick (the very left) and got two lines which meant positive. But this wasn't enough for Ryan so he made me do the other two since there was 3 in a pack. But as my wee wasn't as strong, a line barely came up. So to save the headache of staring at faint lines, i got a digital test and bish bash bosh I'm up the duff :) 


This was a few days after Xmas when we found out. We told our parents but thought we would keep it at that. As the weeks went on we told more people though! That was until i started bleeding at 8 weeks. After a phone to NHS direct telling me to go the doctors the next morning who then told me to go the hospital, it was all very scary. We had an early pregnancy scan anyway and she said everything was alright. We got to see the baby a bit earlier anyway :) 


Ive pretty much been bleeding since then, not a lot but when you shouldn't bleed at all it seems like loads. At the hospital today I got told I have a low lying placenta and thats why i might be bleeding. They also said if its still like that throughout the pregnancy i might need a cesarean but chances are it will move a bit higher so i should be alright.


The thought of a cesarean sounds appealing to me. It shouldn't really cos it'll mean lots of pain after and staying in hospital a while. But i'll know when I'm having the baby, and ill have pain relief before the labour actually starts. winner winner chicken dinner!! 


I don't like thinking about labour so i won't talk too much about it. Lets just say, Im still traumatised. I am that annoying overreacting girl who screams at the top of their voice and people think "is it really that bad?". Yes. for me anyway. some 'enjoy' labour...HA. 


So i told the midwife today i want an epidural the minute I'm 3 centimetres and I'm telling her now so she's got it ready. Then she tried the whole shebang about if I've thought of a home birth, or a water birth, or hypnotherapy. No, i need to be paralysed from the waist down thanks. 


Ive been quite bad with nausea since I've found out i was pregnant. I haven't actually been sick yet, i just feel sick ALL the time. The smell of everything is horrible. Ive only just managed to go back in Asda and i have to rush round and not go near the bakery pizza or fish parts. bleurghhh. I never had any of this with Alfie so i was hoping for the same again. this baby has other ideas. Its 5cms long and causing havoc already :) can tell its ryans!! 


I ask Alfie where the baby is and he rubs my belly. It's very cute. He kissed it before too!


Anyway, bit of a long one as its my first one. I'll try and do one every week if I've got something to say or show. Something to pass my time anyway.  


For now tho, world, meet baby Wood, due 28th August :) 

                                                 Kel, xXx